I want terribly to blog this new mom experience, however the experience is wiping me out. The new name of the blog should be “Stop telling me to sleep when the baby sleeps.”
I compose a lot of blogs in my head, but I haven’t found the time to sit down and write them.
I’m exhausted but happy. Breast feeding and pumping makes me want to cry but also makes me feel pretty amazing that I make food with my boobs. I don’t know how long I can keep it up, but at least until I can pump enough to store and offset the cost of the pump, lol.
I have an emotional breakdown at least once a day. Usually after being up since 3am with a baby that no longer wants to sleep. It usually hits me around noon and I crack and have a good cry. It’s all worth it though. I love this little baby so much. But it is tough now that’s husband went back to work and it’s just me. It feels overwhelming at times. I freak out when I think about how I’m going to make going back to work actually work.
This is the first time I’ve tried posting from my phone. Hope it works 🙂